we couldn't figure out an exact date when we actually started dating, so we set the date ourselves, it's 17th Nov 2008 LOL.
so he had been through all my public exams together with me, commencing from PMR (on the way to drop into his trap), SPM and STPM. btw, definitely not UPSR although we studied in the same elementary school =p
i have just stepped into the age of 20th, equally, i gave him 1/4 of my life to him. *damn it why this much?=p*
"regret or not?" never.
"why not? you gave him your most precious 18th, which everyone single of us has only once!" because of passion no doubt.
i find passion extraordinary important in a relationship. it's the key to a ever-lasting relationship.
the tender age of 15th, guess probably most people expect us to break up like after 1 year, 2 years or at most, 3 years? but yea, nope.
i used to be a typical clingy girlfriend to my ex boyfriends, an extremely typical bad example.
overly-attached, angry over small things, jealous at every girl around them. i wanted them to be with me like every second, every minute, every single day! such a pathetic girl.
but not until i have started dating with Jeff. of course, i did brought over my bad attitude transferring one to the present boyfriend, didn't do that really long, i changed quite a lot immediately after being with him.
throwing back, he's such a genius in bearing my absurd attitudes. haha. quite often in throwing a tantrum at him, but he could always restrain my temper.
he could really use a variety of ways to gain my smile again whenever i frown, sad, upset, depress.
moreover, i sulked whenever he did the things i dislike. seriously, how could he bear with all these scum attitudes wtf =.= haha
started our LDR (long distance relationship) more than 1 year already, such a tough year.
LDR has never been easy, it sucks all the way. Jeff has been treating me like a real princess, he solved most of my problems whenever he's around with me, but it's really kind of hard when he left. i suffered a little though.
problems and conflicts between us? yes we do have. how on earth this whole world exists a couple without a single conflict happens in between?????? if yes, i salute!
much more frequent after he went to pursue his studies. 12 months in a year, i could only meet him for approximately 3 months this year. perhaps less than?
we are struggling really hard to maintain it, not wanting to let go of each other.
frankly speaking, i did mention about breaking up, but he usually just ignored or begged.
luckily he did persevere, if he wasn't, there would not even have the existence of this post oops!
guess not, we have had just passed our fifth anniversary. as usual, no celebration. ever since we started this relationship, we can never meet during this day.
when he was 17th, i was 16th, he sat for his SPM. and then i was 17th, he was 18th, i sat for my SPM.
so when i finally turned 18th, he was 19th, he sat for his STPM. the following year, i sat for my STPM and he was already in the university, experiencing his brand new life.
perhaps we had really chose the wrong date wtf =.=
i didn't mind at all, it's really okay because we have got no choice.
i want him to be stress-free in this relationship, not worrying even a single thing.
it's all about a trust word! T.R.U.S.T!
i have seen too much of unsuccessful relationships due to truthfulness, i don't even have any intention to let mine to be one of the examples.
if, unfortunately, there's that 1 day, hopefully we're being separated by losing passion, absolutely not because of trust, jealousy, patience, and bla bla bla.......... but please please please, make it a zero possibility for this to happen.
so some tips out there......................... *not to say i'm an expert, 'cause i'm apparently not 1*
i uber hate overly-attached type of girlfriends. how could guys bear with it! *puke*
i gave time to Jeff to being with his family whenever he's in Kuching, so it's kinda okay if he could not make a date with me. as long as he is happy, what else do i really care.
and of course, i don't get angry easily. the amount of number we quarreled in a year could be counted within five fingers.
and a big no no to jealousy! if you trust him, why bother to jealous?
oh ya! bear in mind that, meeting a right person has never been easy. not to mention about bf/gf, usually finding a friend with the right tempo is considered as uneasy already.
so please appreciate! be gratitude for his existence always and always.
just a word thank has never enough to express how i feel.
with love,
amelia xoxo
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